Associations or rules

 I wrote once about how i hate these kind of systematic rules that aim to systemize logic, those like the proof by contradiction and similar rules. My mind always fails to grasp them and work with them despite them sound very intuitive and this is actually the problem with them, too intuitive to be systemized. 

I always find myself standing in wonder when i see people going to workshops that teach logic and thinking using rules and steps, or even methodologies. I tried once to give it a chance to listen to them and attempted to adhere, and they just destroyed my intuition and completely disabled my mind that i couldn't even do the very easy metal tasks i used to do blindly before. I remember in my last year at high school, the chemistry teacher was trying to make it easy for students to solve the (Molariya = Molarity), so he collected all possible types of questions that could emerge from Molarity, and put them into rules, you just have to see what is given, what is not, maybe search for certain shapes or certain sentences, and then follow the rule and you will be just fine. I studied his rules and notes, and i just couldn't solve any question with them, they made me totally unable to use my mind and it felt like my mind is an old radio that keeps giving noise and artifacts but never the correct signal. 

I'm always good at associating things together, discovering patterns and relating things together. On the other hand, i am very stupid when it comes to rules and steps. 

So where did all this come from? I was reading a piece of article about the minds of babies and how they come to learn a lot of things about the world specially the language. 

(( They suggest that humans are not naturally good at the kind of reasoning subserved  by rules.  Rule  use emerges late in life as a  result  of  formal  schooling and socially articulated  rules,  or  as  a  result  of extensive training that makes an associative network approximate rule-like behavior ))

Haha, i feel relieved now. Schools and systems actually deteriorate our cognitive abilities not improve them. With schools and systems we're creating creatures that can maintain the system itself, and make it more livable. But we just stop them from changing the system, from looking outside of it, we're caging them into the frame and strip them from their potentials to have a look beyond. Our mind have a chance to flourish, to see a whole different horizon within the same dimensions, and yet we just choose to give away this chance forever. 

It is all justifiable though, Imaging myself a mother to child, Can i just decide to create a new world for him/her that doesn't involve schools? colleges and any other kind of systems out there? Oh i would never do that. I would never take that chance to fit in from him/her, or at least i would never decide it for him/her. Will i try to compensate ? Yes probably, as hard as possible. despite the fact that chances of compensation grow smaller everyday, with all this economic crisis the world faces, all hardships and cruel capitalism that doesn't seem to go away soon. 

I have a lot to say about this, however, i feel tired and writing in English isn't that easy for a non-native trying to assimilate her way into the language like me!